It's Time

I talked to my good friend dave a dayish ago.
We caught up and little bit and had some chit chat.
I told him how i noticed how everyone is doing something cool with their lives.
Some are starting a band and becoming very successful, two people are starting their own respective magazines, and I'm doing nothing.
He told me, "well, how about music? that's what it seems like you want to be doing right now".
Then it kinda just hit me. yes it is what i want to do right now.
I know I don't want to do it for my career and the rest of my life, like, mega seriously, but I really need something real and something I can accomplish things in.
So after that moment, I said to myself that I would start taking music a bit more seriously.
I've overhauled my room, put all my guitars together, moved the piano in, and made myself a harmonica holder.
I've also started trying to write a little bit more. It's still as hard as ever but it's goin'.
I'm learning songs that i learnt when I first started playing guitar, just to play and practice, and I'm pulling out the old piano books too. I'm also considering taking singing lessons just for the practice.
I'm getting so caught up in other people's lives recently, with everything I do, I just think it's useless because other people are already doing it. It's really distracting and holding me back.
It's weird. Because I say I'm just thinking about other people and not fucusing on myself, but I've noticed I've said "I'm" and "I" and "I've" a countless number of times just now.
So is it just that I'm whiney, that I'm not getting anything done?

It's Time to get my ass into gear and work for something. Not for something, but for a feeling. I want. I Need, to feel. I Need to feel happy, accomplished, ambitious, creative, hungry, passionate, full.

I Need to Be.